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I just got back after spending the weekend with my brother-in-law and his wife in Canberra..  What a wonderful, nurturing time I had.. 

It began late Friday afternoon with my brother-in-law presenting himself at the airport to pick me up.  A quick ride in the car to the Yacht Club, a civilised G&T while sitting in really comfy chairs overlooking the lake and engaging in heart-to-heart conversation.  I unloaded all my heartache, disappointment, fear, terror, as well as my complete connection and total love for a certain person – he sat, listened, empathised, gave me a man’s perspective (being someone who had to deal with a lot of guilt about leaving his children to be with my sister) and reminded me that I have resilience – that no matter what has occured in my life – I have always got up, dusted myself off and got on the ride again – that I have always had an energy / childlike wonderment for life that will see me through.  That he could still see the inner me – mischievous with a  love for life & experience made me cry – because I certainly haven’t felt like that for such a long time, and the fact that he could still see it, means that I can access it.. 

We talked about my sister, the things she used to do to him, how much she meant to him – the heartache as we watched her die – and even though the heartache was so great for him – he never once regretted his decision to be with her (I think the one regret he had regarding her was that he took so long to make his mind up to be with her and put her through hell and back during that time).  He was so happy to have had the priviledge of marrying her, to have been with her even for such a short time – for him it was all worth it, because she was the love of his life.   We wondered what she would be like now – 16 years down the track – what her relationship would have been like with her son..  I can’t begin to tell you how much that conversation meant to me – I haven’t talked to him for so long (not through anything bad happening – just life taking us in seperate directions) – I’d forgotten that we share a connection that can never be broken.  We laughed – a lot and we cried!  How truly lucky I am!

Then back to his place for a lovely dinner and more fantastic conversation. 

Saturday begins with croissants and hot chocolate (he remembers that I don’t drink coffee!!).  Then the itinerary for the day is planned.. A trip to Canberra Glassworks, then the Degas exhibition, lunch then possibly another exhibition.

Off we go!!  Canberra Glassworks was amazing – I have always found glasswork to be fascinating – but I have never actually experienced it first hand..  Here, you get to sit and watch as the artists make amazing things out of glass.  I noticed that people (looked like students) were coming and going with regularity.  Hmmm.. I wondered if it was possible to do that – I ran downstairs to the reception area and enquired – I got the last available slot for the day!!  Yay!!  So so excited..  As it was for later that afternoon, we went off the see the Degas Exhibition.  I must say, for me, it was a disappointment.  I think there was only one or two paintings that actually inspired me, the rest were dull and lifeless (but, as I know virtually nothing about art, don’t take my word for it!).  Time to go back the the glassworks..

Oh my..  what an experience…  The heat from the furnaces was so intense, I was sweating within seconds of entering..  But fun – oh, so much fun!  It is an amazing medium to work with – the guys make it look so easy – but, when they give you a go, you realise how inept you are.  My teachers were great – full of life and mischief (both of them) – making jokes, sharing knowledge – it’s made me want to go back and do the weekend workshop.

Fiona in Canberra Glassworks  Glassworks  016

I haven’t got a clear photo of the finished product – but I receive it late next week, so will post then..

After that experience, I couldn’t stop smiling for hours – I was like a little kid – hyperactive – talkative – doing little jumps (well.. not quite – but my inner child certainly was!).  Before we left, my brother in law and his wife bought the most exquiste cocktail glasses made by Tom Rowney – I wish I had taken a photo of them – they were just divine.. 

Back home to a scrumptious curry and stir fry complete with Cosmopolitans in the new glasses (which I thought was extremely brave – I think I would have used them as art pieces – never to be used – especially by me and extra especially by me coupled with alcohol!)..  More talking, watching some tv, before fading quickly in light of the above mentioned Cosmos..

Then on the airplane first thing this morning..

I felt so nurtured and so supported.  It was a beautiful experience – and once again I feel so very very lucky..

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